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Friday, December 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 23:10:11 GMT

I cannot find a way
To describe it
It's there
Inside
All I do is hide
I wish
That it
Would just go away
What would
You do?
You do?
If you knew...
What would you do?

All the pain
I thought I knew
All these thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable
Come and take me away

I feel
Like I
Am alone
All by
Myself
I need to get around this
My words
Are cold
I don't want them to hurt you
If I
Show you
I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understsands

All the pain
I thought I knew

i'm sad, in case you couldn't tell. but i made the pic, and i feel clever. but then i felt sad again. i want to sing this for a cappella. i actually, cried tonite. must be close to the full moon. *tears slide down cheeks* i don't know why i'm so depressed all of a sudden, but i am, and i don't know how to stop it. oh well.

lisa's party should be fun.

*sings sadly the lyrics above*

i thought i liked someone, then i found out they were an asshole, and i'd tell you who it was, but i'm too nice to tell anyone who the bastard is.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 16:26:33 GMT

*mourns loss of j.b.'s high voice*

i got over it, he's still pretty.

and this is for mr. ryan, who is just itching to know what my story is about.

it's about a teacher, that changes the lives of her students forever, but it's not the usual type. someday you'll all read it and agree that i am awesome.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 20:32:47 GMT

OMG i thought of the coolest story idea ever. and now that i'm finished with jtod i thought i might take a break while i contact different companies, and write something a little different to celebrate. i won't tell you what it's about though, cuz i might want to get it published if i like it. i hope my editor will like it to, and my agent/manager, and my artist, and all the other members of my supercool team of hotness!

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 22:06:31 GMT

HI!!!!

i've decided to tell ya'll about my dream that i had yesterday! (well actually last night)

i was at school, but it was like a boarding school. and i had been gone for a while and some things were really different! so yeah, crystal was dating you know who and everyone was obsessed with this horrible "jacket game" which had started out with someone wearing a really hideous coat to school, then they kissed someone they liked and forced them to wear the coat. they told them it was a game to lessen embarrasement for themselves! and so it spread through the school like wildfire! and then you know who who was dating crystal shoved me against my locker, kissed me, threw the hideous caot at me and ran away! i was shocked but i didn't say anything to crystal because she'd be superpissed! so i had this ugly coat, and you had to wear it, you had to it was part of the game! so i was wearing it and all these people were like, you have to get rid of it! and i was all, but i don't want to kiss anyone! because that was the object of the game, to get rid of the coat , but to kiss someone you liked! and the next day, i still had the ugly coat, and we went on a field trip, brenda was there, and kim and kime, and a couple other people were there. and in the time i was away there was this new kid who'd established himself as a jackass, and he was there too! well, the field trip was going okay, until soldiers attacked our bus, killed the teacher and stole the bus. our only shelter was an abandoned warehouse, and we had very little food, the warehouse was full of food, but that part was locked! (of course) so we're trying to use cell phones to call for help, but it's not working, the enemy had destroyed verything we could use to call for help! so we're living in this warehouse, and about some time later after we'd pretty much gotten to be friends, all of us except the jackass kid and his friends, we decided that it wasn't so bad living here. especailly since we had each other and a truck still came by to deliver food, even though the warehouse was totally abandoned! i still had the horrible coat by the way, so i was walking around the warehouse in the rain, wearing the caot because it was cold, and i see the jackass and his friends playing around with old rusty knives and other such pointy objects, and i being mothering, tell them to stop it before they get hurt, and the jackass tells his friends to beat it, and i'm confused but they leave or so i think, but i turn arouind to watch them go and the jackass holds a rusty knife to my throst and threatens to slash my throat unless i kiss him and give him the coat! and i say no and elbow him in the ribs, he lets me go and i try to run but he trips me. so i'm like "what do you want?" and he's all "i want you to kiss me!" and i go "no you jackass" and he's all "but you have too!" in this defeated voice i look at him and he's got this puppydog face on, and of course i melt, cuz he's really cute . then i of course wake up because i hear crystal snoring. interesting no?

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 21:31:33 GMT

okay, mr. w. is a fool! he actually thought that j.b. was a girl! and abbey k. said he was twelve! he's sixteen, and no he's (very much) not gay!

The Romantic Eye http://quizilla.com/users/kaylasatmms/quizzes/Which%20eye%20are%20you%3F%20~~GREAT%20PICTURES~~/

it hink this is the right link!

this is the one i got, but i thought this one was pretty . . .

You are a Lily:

You are graceful, gentle, calm, and pure and perhaps a little shy (though your shyness is part of your charm). You are a very honorable person who always wants to do the right thing. Your calm attitude has a soothing effect on others.

Symbolism: The lily has long been used as a symbol of majesty, honor, chastity, and purity of heart.

cool. http://quizilla.com/users/FaerieFriend/quizzes/Which%20Flower%20are%20You%3F/

that's all for now

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 20:14:18 GMT

Well, I'm back! yay me!

so yeah, i've decided to write about some stuff that's really not all that important. so far . . . i got nothing! so i shall post quiz results. . . that's about it for now. . . .love!

http://quizilla.com/cgi-bin/result/result.pl

You have a 60% to 80% chance of Draco being attracted to you. He probably likes the darker, artistic type, so maybe you've got something there... You appreciate that there's more to him than just sex appeal (he has lots). Just don't tell Draco fangirls about this, they'd murder you with a pickaxe.

http://quizilla.com/cgi-bin/result/result.pl

shy kisser
you are shy yet passionate the same time witch makes a very strong impact on who you kiss!

http://quizilla.com/cgi-bin/result/result.pl

just so you know the link to the quiz is underneath the results! (in purple!)